I really do love you, but wish that our relationship could become something more long term than the on-off situation we have at the moment. I miss you when you leave & hate not knowing when you'll bother to come back.
This winter has often felt like a hard slog without you! It's rained constantly which has often felt oppressive. The world has often felt like it has had the colour turned off & we're living in greyscale. I'm a colour addict so it's felt exceptionally tough. I've tried to introduce some colour into
my life by buying lots of my favourite spring flowers & knitting/crocheting with lots of beautifully coloured yarns. These brighten up my day, but nothing lifts your mood like stepping out on a bright sunny day & taking in big breathes of fresh air with the sun on your face.
I think I've needed you dear sunshine more than ever this winter. Being at home alone with a very active 3 year old & a hyperactive Collie dog; as well as a small baby has been hard whilst we're trapped inside hiding from the rain. When it was just Henry & I last year, I would simply pop his wellies & raincoat on & we would head off to the park regardless of the weather. However it's not so easy this year as managing a soaking wet dog and little boy (who often needs carrying at some point thanks to falling over in the mud) is a bit of a juggling act whilst trying to keep baby Niamh warm & dry in the sling.
So on the days that you do come to visit, my dear sunshine, we grab our coats & try to make the most of it. Although it's still very wet & rains at some point most days I have started to see the early signs of spring. Everything feels that little bit brighter when you shine over us lately & the evenings are getting brighter & the flowers are starting to bloom.
The dog is calmer on these bright & sunny days because his walks are not cut short by the rain. Henry is happier as he gets to burn off some of his never ending energy & revel in the pure pleasure of simply running for the sake of running. Niamh enjoys being able to watch the world go by from the comfort of her sling & I'm grateful to escape the house. You sweet sunshine makes us all happier.
I don't normally moan about winter because I actually don't mind the colder months. I enjoy filling my flask up with a warm drink & heading out in the cold crisp days to walk the dog. What I enjoy most is how warm & cosy home feels when we return from these winter outings. Dinner is normally cooking in the slow cooker, the heating goes on & we snuggle down together (me with some knitting or crochet to hand) to watch a Disney film as a family. These are my happy days. But this year the rain has made it much harder to embrace these winter months, and as a result I'm eagerly anticipating the arrival of spring with every fibre of my being.
So please sunshine come & visit more often. I won't hold your previous absence against you, in fact I won't even mention it if you promise to stay for a while. March is starting tomorrow, let's make this our month & put January & February behind us!